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About MeAt this point, we figure we will continue on until I'm too old. We still use supplements, diets (GAPS and body ecology combo), and coffee enemas, to detox and help our special needs family. Currently have 4 kids, waiting to see how my youngest will be but oldest has Down Syndrome and Autism, he used to talk and be silly till the Autism kicked in and "took him away". My second is also on the spectrum and I try to homeschool, she is high functioning but struggles with anxieties, memory, motivation, and understanding the social games we play. Third we detoxed prior to conceiving and prayed it would prevent autism. We have been struggling with communication, huge meltdowns throughout the day making it difficult to go anywhere (similar to sister). He was just diagnosed with Autism making it a real bitch at home and making me come to the conclusion that hubby and I procreating is going to continue to produce looney tunes and I have to accept that I or we can't have it like the rest of the population. Now we are looking at our 8 month old and it's breaking my heart. I feel inadequate and frustrated but as stressful as it is, we plan to add more cars to our crazy train. We love them and each other and I don't want to have any regrets in life. We had thought after my daughter that God was telling us to stop and I regretted that we waited so long to try again after 2nd was diagnosed and had 2nd MC. Depression set in and focused on trying to heal my kids and us. We aren't consistent with the diets but we always try to pick ourselves back up and get back on it as it has helped sooo much when we are on it (just a lot of discipline, which we both have little of, and a lot of time in the kitchen). I still suffer depression/anxiety at times and question if we are doing the right thing by reproducing but by this point I guess I'm praying for divine providence ;).
God placed my (Autism) pieces right where He wanted them