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My Due Date: January 2, 2015I have given birth!
Age: 40 years old
Location: United Kingdom
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9Wks Packing boxes and bumps
By Sianny » Posted Jun. 2, 2014 3:49am - 439 views - 3 comments
You would think that after having an early scan my mind would be at rest, its not. My logic is that my twinkle angel baby measured 8wks+3 at the 12wk scan and had no heartbeat, so something went wrong at the 7th week (when we had our early scan) and 8th week so until I've had my next scan in a week and a half I don't think I am going to feel happy or confident.
I feel like such a hypocrite when I answer other expectant mothers questions on here, telling them not to worry because its not good for the baby, when at the back of my mind is my own gnawing and mumbling worry monster. Eating away at me as I rub my belly, gazing in the mirror and dreaming about the future.
On top of that I've had two weeks of hardly any folic acid, any type of tablet such as chewy, singular or multivitamin just wouldn't stay in my stomach. It seemed less then 15 minutes of taking them just made me throw up. I had even seen them come back a few times but couldn't take another because 'bam' I threw it up again.
Lord knows what this has done to the baby.
In other news
Its hard not to think of the future when I can feel what can only be described as a small orange in my belly when I lean forward when sitting or pull my knees up, this is what makes me think I am no longer bloated but maybe I have even popped just a little. I have a great huge belly on me and with my small frame its hard not to notice especially compared to how I looked a week or two ago when I knew I was bloated. Its a bump, it doesn't want to go away, so is this a baby bump? I don't know but its hard not to rub it and love it and fawn over it no matter what my worry monster is saying.
All I know for sure is I love it and I can't do my jeans up over the top of it even if they are now too baggy for in every other area so I'm living in dresses.
This, however bohemian, means I've had to put aside the much loved biker boots I've spent the winter in and transfer to flat ballet pumps. Not a good thing as the flats are causing my back to complain at every opportunity. I'm beginning to feel like I'm seven months pregnant with the huffing and the puffing or maybe i'm just getting old...
There is a brighter side to all this, food is back on the cards and I even enjoyed a BBQ at my brother in laws without needing anti sicknesses tablets all day. Yesterday I had to take one in the evening as I threw up and again this morning but I am so much more ME again and able to take the folic acid too. Fingers crossed I haven't done too much damage.
We are just waiting on a date to exchange contracts and then we will officially be moving into the cottage in a stunning little village. Quickly, cute garden perfect for children and a mass amount of countryside only a minutes walk from our front door. In fact the shops, school, train station that takes me straight to my parents and in laws and pub is only a 5 minutes walk away. No more stuffy apartment and downstairs neighbors who despite working 9-5 decide that bath time is 11pm and then shouting across the room to one another and banging around in the kitchen with the radio on at midnight is normal behavior. She tells me she's always tired, can't think why.
She'll have a shock when she decides to have kids, 8am and I ready for bed, the bath can wait and if the raido is on I can't hear what the 2yr old is breaking/maiming/eating/destroying.
Come on house move, I WANT TO NEST!
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9Wks Packing boxes and bumps
By Sianny » Posted Jun. 2, 2014 3:49am - 439 views - 3 comments
You would think that after having an early scan my mind would be at rest, its not. My logic is that my twinkle angel baby measured 8wks+3 at the 12wk scan and had no heartbeat, so something went wrong at the 7th week (when we had our early scan) and 8th week so until I've had my next scan in a week and a half I don't think I am going to feel happy or confident.
I feel like such a hypocrite when I answer other expectant mothers questions on here, telling them not to worry because its not good for the baby, when at the back of my mind is my own gnawing and mumbling worry monster. Eating away at me as I rub my belly, gazing in the mirror and dreaming about the future.
On top of that I've had two weeks of hardly any folic acid, any type of tablet such as chewy, singular or multivitamin just wouldn't stay in my stomach. It seemed less then 15 minutes of taking them just made me throw up. I had even seen them come back a few times but couldn't take another because 'bam' I threw it up again.
Lord knows what this has done to the baby.
In other news
Its hard not to think of the future when I can feel what can only be described as a small orange in my belly when I lean forward when sitting or pull my knees up, this is what makes me think I am no longer bloated but maybe I have even popped just a little. I have a great huge belly on me and with my small frame its hard not to notice especially compared to how I looked a week or two ago when I knew I was bloated. Its a bump, it doesn't want to go away, so is this a baby bump? I don't know but its hard not to rub it and love it and fawn over it no matter what my worry monster is saying.
All I know for sure is I love it and I can't do my jeans up over the top of it even if they are now too baggy for in every other area so I'm living in dresses.
This, however bohemian, means I've had to put aside the much loved biker boots I've spent the winter in and transfer to flat ballet pumps. Not a good thing as the flats are causing my back to complain at every opportunity. I'm beginning to feel like I'm seven months pregnant with the huffing and the puffing or maybe i'm just getting old...
There is a brighter side to all this, food is back on the cards and I even enjoyed a BBQ at my brother in laws without needing anti sicknesses tablets all day. Yesterday I had to take one in the evening as I threw up and again this morning but I am so much more ME again and able to take the folic acid too. Fingers crossed I haven't done too much damage.
We are just waiting on a date to exchange contracts and then we will officially be moving into the cottage in a stunning little village. Quickly, cute garden perfect for children and a mass amount of countryside only a minutes walk from our front door. In fact the shops, school, train station that takes me straight to my parents and in laws and pub is only a 5 minutes walk away. No more stuffy apartment and downstairs neighbors who despite working 9-5 decide that bath time is 11pm and then shouting across the room to one another and banging around in the kitchen with the radio on at midnight is normal behavior. She tells me she's always tired, can't think why.
She'll have a shock when she decides to have kids, 8am and I ready for bed, the bath can wait and if the raido is on I can't hear what the 2yr old is breaking/maiming/eating/destroying.
Come on house move, I WANT TO NEST!
Comments for this Journal Entry
 | Comment from Sianny » Posted Jun. 2, 2014 2:45pm Thank you. You would be surprised at how comforting those words can be. My money is on a boy as the entire of my hubbys side are male. 6 uncles and 18 male cousins, 10 of which to one uncle dead set on getting the first girl in the family. |
 | Comment from Mrs_HT » Posted Jun. 2, 2014 2:30pm I hope your next scan brings you some relief. I was the same after the miscarriage and wouldn't allow myself to be happy until I was past the point where I lost the baby. I am praying for you. I honestly think that your bean is here to stay and heads up, majority of babies born after miscarriage are boys :-0 it's also good you can eat more but I would take the morning, afternoon, and evening sickness as a good sign that baby is growing! |
 | Comment from ellsbells71 » Posted Jun. 2, 2014 5:07am Glad your feeling much better now, good luck with the move god knows its stressful enough without being pregnant. x |
