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My Due Date: July 19, 2015I have given birth!
Age: 39 years old
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Pretty much ready, but still waiting
By rcorinne » Posted Jul. 9, 2015 2:11am - 410 views - 8 comments
I've kind of reached that phase where I'm over pregnancy. I lit up today when I saw that doctor I complained about early on who told me not to microwave my food in plastic. She was wearing an Ergo baby carrier with her 2 month old son sleeping against her chest. He looked so sweet and peaceful there. There have been many moments since Cameron's birth that I've wished he was simply back in my tummy, so I didn't have to deal with his needs on the outside, and could just do what I wanted without worry about him. This wasn't one of them. I remembered how tiny, needy, and sweet newborn Cam was. I longed for the feel of Emma sleeping against my chest like that instead of being stuck pregnant in this heat with no idea when she might be delivered. It's weird imagining what she might look like folded up inside of me, and the thought of her on the outside is somehow reassuring and right. Perhaps the recent tragedies some of the ladies on this website have experienced is weighing on me. I'm reminded how precious and precarious life can be. This feeling is partially why I agreed to induction with Cameron. I was over it. I couldn't rest even though I was supposed to. I was swollen. I wanted to see my baby. I hated not knowing when. I don't have any pictures of my belly right before having Cam. I know why. I don't feel very attractive at this point. Everyday someone asks me when I'm due. My shirts all have a tendency of creeping up and revealing the underside of my belly. I am exhausted, but seldom sleepy. Lying down just doesn't feel good. Standing up makes my ankles swell and my legs and feet hurt by the end of the day. Some people have claimed that the baby has "dropped." I dunno. She is lower than Cam was at the end, but I attribute part of that to my belly having already done this before and kind of giving up the fight of holding her up higher. I'm still congested, but no longer spitting up copious quantities of green phlegm, and haven't had a fever since last Thursday, so I guess I'm better. The midwife and trainee commended me on my weight gain (~30 lb since my first prenatal appt) and blood pressure (still 120/70s), but I feel like I have little control over those things at this point. I eat when I feel like it, or when I have time. I eat mostly what I want. I deal with reflux in my throat a lot. I don't exercise as much as I used to, but still have difficulty sitting still, so I guess I'm inadvertently staying active. My in-laws leave town on my due date. My hubs has absolutely nothing scheduled this week. The temp employee for my department at work starts Friday, but not necessarily training with me. My hospital bag is packed. The baby car seat is in my car. The Pack N Play is set up in our bedroom. Now would be a good time to go into labor. DH asked me yesterday if I felt like she was coming soon. I sadly told him, "no." Everyone keeps saying that I would know because I've had a kid already. Like I would have any clue it was time to have a baby. I argue that I got induced with Cameron. I have no frickin' clue what the start of "natural" labor feels like. I KNOW that I'm not in active labor. That I can assure everyone. But is she engaging? Has she dropped? Is she going to be here before the due date or plenty after? How would I know? Ugh! I'm such an impatient person. I don't know how I can take my sweet time with some activities, but with others, I'm dying to get from point A to point B. At least I'm staying busy. I don't have a lot of time to sit around twiddling my thumbs wondering. I don't want to be at work anymore, but can't imagine how tough waiting would be without work to distract me. Anyway, done complaining for the night. Thanks for reading, anyone who made it through this. I've attached pics from this week: The "bump," Cam's racecar bed, and my smiling big boy who asked for a picture this evening...
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Pretty much ready, but still waiting
By rcorinne » Posted Jul. 9, 2015 2:11am - 410 views - 8 comments
I've kind of reached that phase where I'm over pregnancy. I lit up today when I saw that doctor I complained about early on who told me not to microwave my food in plastic. She was wearing an Ergo baby carrier with her 2 month old son sleeping against her chest. He looked so sweet and peaceful there. There have been many moments since Cameron's birth that I've wished he was simply back in my tummy, so I didn't have to deal with his needs on the outside, and could just do what I wanted without worry about him. This wasn't one of them. I remembered how tiny, needy, and sweet newborn Cam was. I longed for the feel of Emma sleeping against my chest like that instead of being stuck pregnant in this heat with no idea when she might be delivered. It's weird imagining what she might look like folded up inside of me, and the thought of her on the outside is somehow reassuring and right. Perhaps the recent tragedies some of the ladies on this website have experienced is weighing on me. I'm reminded how precious and precarious life can be. This feeling is partially why I agreed to induction with Cameron. I was over it. I couldn't rest even though I was supposed to. I was swollen. I wanted to see my baby. I hated not knowing when. I don't have any pictures of my belly right before having Cam. I know why. I don't feel very attractive at this point. Everyday someone asks me when I'm due. My shirts all have a tendency of creeping up and revealing the underside of my belly. I am exhausted, but seldom sleepy. Lying down just doesn't feel good. Standing up makes my ankles swell and my legs and feet hurt by the end of the day. Some people have claimed that the baby has "dropped." I dunno. She is lower than Cam was at the end, but I attribute part of that to my belly having already done this before and kind of giving up the fight of holding her up higher. I'm still congested, but no longer spitting up copious quantities of green phlegm, and haven't had a fever since last Thursday, so I guess I'm better. The midwife and trainee commended me on my weight gain (~30 lb since my first prenatal appt) and blood pressure (still 120/70s), but I feel like I have little control over those things at this point. I eat when I feel like it, or when I have time. I eat mostly what I want. I deal with reflux in my throat a lot. I don't exercise as much as I used to, but still have difficulty sitting still, so I guess I'm inadvertently staying active. My in-laws leave town on my due date. My hubs has absolutely nothing scheduled this week. The temp employee for my department at work starts Friday, but not necessarily training with me. My hospital bag is packed. The baby car seat is in my car. The Pack N Play is set up in our bedroom. Now would be a good time to go into labor. DH asked me yesterday if I felt like she was coming soon. I sadly told him, "no." Everyone keeps saying that I would know because I've had a kid already. Like I would have any clue it was time to have a baby. I argue that I got induced with Cameron. I have no frickin' clue what the start of "natural" labor feels like. I KNOW that I'm not in active labor. That I can assure everyone. But is she engaging? Has she dropped? Is she going to be here before the due date or plenty after? How would I know? Ugh! I'm such an impatient person. I don't know how I can take my sweet time with some activities, but with others, I'm dying to get from point A to point B. At least I'm staying busy. I don't have a lot of time to sit around twiddling my thumbs wondering. I don't want to be at work anymore, but can't imagine how tough waiting would be without work to distract me. Anyway, done complaining for the night. Thanks for reading, anyone who made it through this. I've attached pics from this week: The "bump," Cam's racecar bed, and my smiling big boy who asked for a picture this evening...
Comments for this Journal Entry
 | Comment from luckyrobin » Posted Jul. 10, 2015 4:57pm Hope you have a healthy labour soon. It is so hard at the end waiting...! |
 | Comment from eat2nourish » Posted Jul. 9, 2015 5:32pm I'm sorry you're having a tough time in this last bit of waiting. In the end it will all be worth it :). |
 | Comment from MalPal85 » Posted Jul. 9, 2015 9:58am You look freaking great! Hope Emma comes soon! |
| Comment from pbc910 » Posted Jul. 9, 2015 9:47am Here is hoping she decides to make her entrance sooner than later! |
 | Comment from rcorinne » Posted Jul. 9, 2015 9:46am Summer, I know, 9+ months is sooooo long, especially if you're like us and find out immediately that you're pregnant. I've gone through lots and lots of Tums, tmhess. I'm just surprised how often the reflux shows up now, even when I haven't eaten for awhile. Kitten, she does not feel remotely like she's gonna fall out. I think Cam only felt like that right before I pushed, just couple hours before he was born. :P |
 | Comment from Kitten90 » Posted Jul. 9, 2015 8:57am She definitely dropped =) And if she's engaged it generally feels like your carrying a bowling ball between your legs that's gonna fall out any minute lol! And it's okay, you are COMPLETELY ALLOWED to complain alllll you want! The end sucks! I'm hoping your baby decides she's ready soon =) |
 | Comment from Summer0120 » Posted Jul. 9, 2015 8:34am Based on your previous pics I've seen, I'd say the baby has definitely dropped. I'm sure you are definitely ready to get the show on the road. I'm so jealous of my dog and her 63 days of pregnancies. Why do we have to wait so darn long?? ;) |
| Comment from tmhess » Posted Jul. 9, 2015 6:47am I hope you go into labor soon so you can hold Emma in your arms. :) I am dealing with the GERD myself, food coming back up into your throat is not fun. :( |
