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Driving myself nuts
By ch3rrypie11 » Posted Jun. 12, 2015 9:08am - 194 views - 4 comments

I really don't think it's normal for how obsessed I am with this pregnancy and how much I am fearing I will lose the baby. I wake up in the middle of the night worrying, fall asleep worrying and spend all day reading and googling any little symptom I have wanting to know if it's all normal. I have made it further this month then last month which ended in a chemical pregnancy...and this time feel a lot more "pregnant", but I still hold my breath everytime I wipe after going to the bathroom expecting to see the blood. I have another Dr's appointment on Monday to check my levels and progesterone again...My last one was on the 5th and my levels were at 194...so this time on Monday...I am hoping they are at least in the 6,000 range since it will have been 10 days later. I am also anxious as to when i can go for my first ultrasound...I think that will really ease my mind if I see the baby and hopefully hear a heartbeat. I know it's up to God but I can't help but worry. I am trying not to even do much in fear I will trigger the miscarriage.

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	Comment from ch3rrypie11 » Posted Jun. 12, 2015 9:36am Thanks HzlGreenEyes, I remember freaking out when I was pregnant with my daughter but I think since I did have a CP last month...it's a whole new level of terror...and you're right...once the baby is born a whole new set of worries start but that's motherhood lol. Saying tons of prayers! Good luck to you too!
	Comment from HzlGreenEyes » Posted Jun. 12, 2015 9:33am Unfortunately, you will be on edge most of the pregnancy. The possibilities are endless and can tilt to our favor or not. Until you hold that baby in your arms is the only time your worries of the pregnancy will disappear but then you will have other worries after. I will say this... Enjoy every milestone of this pregnancy. Have Faith everything will be ok!
	Comment from ch3rrypie11 » Posted Jun. 12, 2015 9:26am thanks! I agree...we love it from the moment we get the BFP...I don't think it helps my Dr is so laid back...it puts me more on edge lol. I have the cramps a little on and off too but I have more of the round ligament pains or that pulling feeling. I will have to try to find a pretty good distraction lol. Fingers crossed for a healthy 9 months!
	Comment from Kate0406 » Posted Jun. 12, 2015 9:21am Funny how we can love something so small isn't it?! I've been doing the same thing only because I've had odd discharge and cramps that have even my Dr baffled. But I did get my ultrasound and baby is OK..does that stop me from worrying? Nope. My only advice is to try to distract yourself so you are not so focused on the what if of having a miscarriage. We both have a long way to go till our safety zone. Good luck.