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My Due Date: April 16, 2013I am postpartum » My due date was more than 2 weeks ago
Age: 42 years old
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Star date 03/12. Part 1 of...MAAAAANY! x
By ladyrobynne » Posted Dec. 3, 2012 4:20am - 278 views - 0 comments
So now i'm just over halfway through the pregnancy. It's been a very odd journey so far. If i'm not crying at the coca-cola advert or at the snow globe my dh took out of the christmas box, then i'm washing babies nappies faaaaaar too early and rearranging the babies bedroom ONCE AGAIN or I'm moaning that i don't get enough sleep during the night.
I'll be brutally honest. I havn't really enjoyed the journey so far. the first 12 weeks for me were probably the hardest. Not what i was expecting. I was expecting to LOVE being pregnant as it's what you see in the films and on the telly, but that's not what it's been like for me. We go through 6 pints of milk in two days and i can go through 1 1/2 litres of water a day if i'm in the house. I have cheese just about every day. The dreams that i have at night are very vivid. Which is not good if i have a nightmare. The quality of sleep i get is nothing compared to the sleep i had before i got prengant. I'm up AT LEAST twice during the night for a wee and last night no matter how i lay in bed i COULDN'T get comfy enough to sleep, and then after 3am i was awake every hour for a drink, or for a wee or both. i end up waking up to move the pillow i either put my belly on or between my legs, or to grab my v shaped pillow off the floor to rest my leg on or to sleep on. I go through food likes and dislikes like neil has hot dinners. My bipolar is all over the place because of the hormones and the amount of stress being piled on me is more than i would like. I wont get into details as it's not gonna help me. There is a high chance i'll end up with post natal depression and my mental health team have decided that they're not gonna keep seeing me once a week. I havn't seen my mental health worker since about august (i think) and i do feel a bit like they've abandoned me even tho i have no been put under the care of a consultant AND the case load midwife becasue of my mental health and heart problems) so hopefully they will visit on a regular basis again which i do think i need. The caseload midwife says that this is more normal that i realise. She said i'm not odd or wierd. A lot of women have the same feelings and don't really enjoy pregnancy. Altho that being said. The lack of sleep and the blood thinner injections and the not being able to eat a lot of the foods that i loved eating are all worth it for the end result. I'll be happy to put up with AAAALLLL of that if my daughter is born healthy and able to come home. The plus sides of being pregnant. I have thought long and hard about this. The good things are that my husband gets to become a dad and i get to become a mum. my skin looks wonderful (so much so that when neils friends get married i'd be happy enough to not wear foundation. FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER!) and to date i have only put on 8lbs. Normally i'd put this on within a month.
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Star date 03/12. Part 1 of...MAAAAANY! x
By ladyrobynne » Posted Dec. 3, 2012 4:20am - 278 views - 0 comments
So now i'm just over halfway through the pregnancy. It's been a very odd journey so far. If i'm not crying at the coca-cola advert or at the snow globe my dh took out of the christmas box, then i'm washing babies nappies faaaaaar too early and rearranging the babies bedroom ONCE AGAIN or I'm moaning that i don't get enough sleep during the night.
I'll be brutally honest. I havn't really enjoyed the journey so far. the first 12 weeks for me were probably the hardest. Not what i was expecting. I was expecting to LOVE being pregnant as it's what you see in the films and on the telly, but that's not what it's been like for me. We go through 6 pints of milk in two days and i can go through 1 1/2 litres of water a day if i'm in the house. I have cheese just about every day. The dreams that i have at night are very vivid. Which is not good if i have a nightmare. The quality of sleep i get is nothing compared to the sleep i had before i got prengant. I'm up AT LEAST twice during the night for a wee and last night no matter how i lay in bed i COULDN'T get comfy enough to sleep, and then after 3am i was awake every hour for a drink, or for a wee or both. i end up waking up to move the pillow i either put my belly on or between my legs, or to grab my v shaped pillow off the floor to rest my leg on or to sleep on. I go through food likes and dislikes like neil has hot dinners. My bipolar is all over the place because of the hormones and the amount of stress being piled on me is more than i would like. I wont get into details as it's not gonna help me. There is a high chance i'll end up with post natal depression and my mental health team have decided that they're not gonna keep seeing me once a week. I havn't seen my mental health worker since about august (i think) and i do feel a bit like they've abandoned me even tho i have no been put under the care of a consultant AND the case load midwife becasue of my mental health and heart problems) so hopefully they will visit on a regular basis again which i do think i need. The caseload midwife says that this is more normal that i realise. She said i'm not odd or wierd. A lot of women have the same feelings and don't really enjoy pregnancy. Altho that being said. The lack of sleep and the blood thinner injections and the not being able to eat a lot of the foods that i loved eating are all worth it for the end result. I'll be happy to put up with AAAALLLL of that if my daughter is born healthy and able to come home. The plus sides of being pregnant. I have thought long and hard about this. The good things are that my husband gets to become a dad and i get to become a mum. my skin looks wonderful (so much so that when neils friends get married i'd be happy enough to not wear foundation. FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER!) and to date i have only put on 8lbs. Normally i'd put this on within a month.
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