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My Due Date: March 10, 2014I have given birth!
Age: 44 years old
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Clotting and cramping....
By Bostonmama08 » Posted Jul. 25, 2013 6:01am - 276 views - 1 comment
Here I go again on this rollercoaster I'd like to get off.
Took my 10 year old for a game of mini-golf yesterday after I got home from work in the early afternoon...and while there, I got some bad cramps. Luckily we were almost finished and I headed home right after. We got home, I made dinner and went to take a bath. I had some small clots and red blood in the tub. I'm also not a moron and know my cervix is OPEN, at least from the outside. I have been checking it for 7 years, I know the difference between closed and open.
I'm so sick of this, and I'm not afraid to say it. Some of the women on here have had terrific, uneventful pregnancies and I'm sure they feel good about being pregnant. Well, I don't. I hate it. There I said it. I hate this.....I want it to be over because I can't do this anymore. I can't emotionally do this. I have a house, a husband, a son, a job....I can't keep running to the ER, the doctor's office or the damn ultrasound place anymore. I really hate this experience. It's been nothing but stressful and unenjoyable.
My doctor says last night, as she always does, "Oh, everything's okay, but just come in tomorrow to be checked again.". Of course, my every other day visit to be told NOTHING. This IS NOT normal people....NOT NORMAL.
I'm sorry if I offend, and yes, I've lost 2 pregnancies prior to this so I'm not a stranger to loss....but I really can't do this. Bleeding like a period, cramping, clotting, having doctors appts. every other day, not being able to live a NORMAL life just for ONE minute not worrying about if I'm going to miscarry and why the hell I can't have a normal pregnancy. I just want to be normal again, honestly.
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Clotting and cramping....
By Bostonmama08 » Posted Jul. 25, 2013 6:01am - 276 views - 1 comment
Here I go again on this rollercoaster I'd like to get off.
Took my 10 year old for a game of mini-golf yesterday after I got home from work in the early afternoon...and while there, I got some bad cramps. Luckily we were almost finished and I headed home right after. We got home, I made dinner and went to take a bath. I had some small clots and red blood in the tub. I'm also not a moron and know my cervix is OPEN, at least from the outside. I have been checking it for 7 years, I know the difference between closed and open.
I'm so sick of this, and I'm not afraid to say it. Some of the women on here have had terrific, uneventful pregnancies and I'm sure they feel good about being pregnant. Well, I don't. I hate it. There I said it. I hate this.....I want it to be over because I can't do this anymore. I can't emotionally do this. I have a house, a husband, a son, a job....I can't keep running to the ER, the doctor's office or the damn ultrasound place anymore. I really hate this experience. It's been nothing but stressful and unenjoyable.
My doctor says last night, as she always does, "Oh, everything's okay, but just come in tomorrow to be checked again.". Of course, my every other day visit to be told NOTHING. This IS NOT normal people....NOT NORMAL.
I'm sorry if I offend, and yes, I've lost 2 pregnancies prior to this so I'm not a stranger to loss....but I really can't do this. Bleeding like a period, cramping, clotting, having doctors appts. every other day, not being able to live a NORMAL life just for ONE minute not worrying about if I'm going to miscarry and why the hell I can't have a normal pregnancy. I just want to be normal again, honestly.
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 | Comment from KenpoMommy » Posted Jul. 25, 2013 11:25pm Have you had any more ultrasounds? I know its frustrating, but as long as the baby is still doing what its supposed to, try to keep in mind your end goal in all of this. I had a very good friend years ago that bled almost continuously her whole first trimester. She was extremely frustrated and stressed out but when she hit her second trimester, the bleeding stopped and she ended up having a perfectly healthy baby. I think you should get a home Doppler. I love mine! I got it when I was pregnant with my youngest and I didn't really appreciate how handy for peace of mind they are until this pregnancy. I've had several miscarriages between this baby and the last one and being able to pull that out and listen to the heart beat any time I want has been very reassuring! You're right at the point where you could start hearing something too. I heard my last baby's at 9 weeks and this one at 7 1/2 weeks. Its well worth the money for the reassurance! |
