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Bedrest for a few days....
By Bostonmama08 » Posted Sep. 5, 2013 6:08am - 308 views - 5 comments

My doctor put me on bedrest for a few days....but I am still spotting, cramping and feel like I have to throw up. I am assuming the nausea is coming from the extreme anxiety I feel....but who knows. I know the blood is an irritant to the uterus, but I honestly feel like I need to have a BM or my period is about to start. Those feelings scare me because that could also mean bad things can still happen. I can start gushing again and deliver this baby at home. Every second, every time I stand up, every time I wake up during the night throwing the sheets back to check for blood.....its terrifying for me. Even now, while sitting here....I think I feel a trickle....and I think, "is this it?".

Every pregnant mom who doesnt have to go through this......count your blessings, lucky stars, etc. I would never wish this on my worst enemy.

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	Comment from Hudson » Posted Sep. 9, 2013 1:36pm Whoa! Totally missed this!! Totally understand. You know it doesn't go away. The SCH will resolve and you'll stop bleeding, but you'll probably be pulling back the covers even at full term. I spotted 2 weeks ago, but haven't had a gush in about 7. I'm STILL paranoid. Every day. The rest definitely helps. Get that water, and when it's just too gross to drink, get iced tea, juice, anything non-carbonated and house it. Thoughts are with you.
	Comment from Bostonmama08 » Posted Sep. 6, 2013 2:23pm Thanks ladies...i am so up and down emotionally with all this. The bedrest is making me depressed,....watching the world go on around me. Hubby is being so positive...tells me "everything is fine!"....drives me insane! I know he is trying to make me feel better but, poor choice of words! I am a teacher and missed my entire first week back...not good. I am set to return Monday with caution....so they know if I have to leave, I leave. Thank God my school is filled with people who have humbled me with their love and support the last few days. They all know what my husband and I have been through so its been easy to just be honest with what is going on. Now all I just need are answers....which I wont get until Wednesday at my next scheduled ultrasound. Waiting waiting waiting.......
	Comment from KenpoMommy » Posted Sep. 6, 2013 1:42pm I'm so sorry you are having to deal with all this stress and uncertainty. Try to think of the bedrest as a positive thing, a chance for you and the baby to rest and heal. Maybe try to take up a hobby for the time you have to be still or find a show you can marathon on Netflix or something to distract you. Anything to take your mind away from what's going on for a bit will help with the anxiety. Another woman i'm following on here had her water break with one of her twins way too early, but the baby stayed in there and developed for another 13 weeks. Her twins were born early, but healthy so don't lose hope, those little babies can be resilient little creatures when they have to be!
	Comment from brittthomp4 » Posted Sep. 5, 2013 9:00am You can do this hon, your ultrasound said baby is okay. Hold onto that thought until you are told other wise. Let your body heal and rest rest rest. I am sorry you are going through this :(
	Comment from ericalee » Posted Sep. 5, 2013 8:58am I'm so sorry to hear that the stress continues for you. I only know how stressed out I felt all the being pregnant the 2nd time worrying about a m/c and that was paralyzing for me at times... and that doesn't even compare to what you're having to manage right now. Your baby has been and will continue to be strong. I so hope you get reassuring news soon because you don't deserve this. You really don't. You deserve to be so excited about this baby and to enjoy this pregnancy. Praying for you and baby! Wish I could give you a big hug!