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7 weeks!
By TheMrs0212 » Posted Feb. 7, 2013 8:14am - 246 views - 0 comments
I am 7 weeks along today!
My ticker says that I found out I was pregnant 20 days ago...wow! 20 days ago I took a pregnancy test on a complete whim, just a weird urge that I had even though I didn't suspect I was pregnant at all. That day and the days that followed also ended up being some of the last moments I shared with my sweet Grandma. Finding out you're pregnant for the first time amidst your last and most special grandparent dying is a really bittersweet thing. That week was very rough. A lot of crying. Crying because I felt happy, and crying because I felt bad about feeling happy. Crying because I knew my Grandma would have been so thrilled for us. After all, she was always telling Tyler and I to, "get to rockin'", lol. I can still hear her laugh and I know exactly how she would have hugged me once I told her the good news.
Tyler and I have tried to have a baby for the last year. It could have happened at any point in 2012 but it didn't. We were discouraged, but I kept saying, "it'll happen when it's supposed to happen." And boy, did it ever. The timing seems grim on the outside, but I view it as a blessing. The good Lord gave me hope. He gave me something to hold onto while I had to let her go, and for that I will be forever thankful.
It is my prayer that I am at least HALF as good to this little bean as my Grandma was to her kids, her grandkids, and even complete strangers. She was a true angel. <3
As for how I feel...pretty much the same. I have had a few "green" moments, but only in the morning and only if I don't eat something within an hour of waking up. It could just be bloat or it could be my imagination, but I swear I have a little bump forming. My normally flat and hard tummy is pooching out just underneath my belly button! My clothes all still fit fine (thank God!) but I am getting self conscious of my stomach. These next 6-7 weeks will be tough for me, because I know it will look like i'm just getting pudgy rather than pregnant, lol. Oh well...it's for a good cause. ;)
Less than 10 days until my first appointment. Yes, I am totally counting down! I've really mellowed out a lot the last two weeks. Worrying is like a rocking chair...it gives you something to do, but doesn't get you anywhere. Although, my constant worry has turned into downright impatience! I've had to stop myself several times from calling the doctors office to see if they can possibly get me in any sooner. Right now i am just keeping myself busy with work and reading pregnancy books. My favorite so far is 'The Girlfriends Guide to Pregnancy'. I highly recommend it! It's basically all the things the "other" books don't tell you and all the things your doctor probably won't cover. It's laugh out loud funny and a very entertaining read. Check it out!
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7 weeks!
By TheMrs0212 » Posted Feb. 7, 2013 8:14am - 246 views - 0 comments
I am 7 weeks along today!
My ticker says that I found out I was pregnant 20 days ago...wow! 20 days ago I took a pregnancy test on a complete whim, just a weird urge that I had even though I didn't suspect I was pregnant at all. That day and the days that followed also ended up being some of the last moments I shared with my sweet Grandma. Finding out you're pregnant for the first time amidst your last and most special grandparent dying is a really bittersweet thing. That week was very rough. A lot of crying. Crying because I felt happy, and crying because I felt bad about feeling happy. Crying because I knew my Grandma would have been so thrilled for us. After all, she was always telling Tyler and I to, "get to rockin'", lol. I can still hear her laugh and I know exactly how she would have hugged me once I told her the good news.
Tyler and I have tried to have a baby for the last year. It could have happened at any point in 2012 but it didn't. We were discouraged, but I kept saying, "it'll happen when it's supposed to happen." And boy, did it ever. The timing seems grim on the outside, but I view it as a blessing. The good Lord gave me hope. He gave me something to hold onto while I had to let her go, and for that I will be forever thankful.
It is my prayer that I am at least HALF as good to this little bean as my Grandma was to her kids, her grandkids, and even complete strangers. She was a true angel. <3
As for how I feel...pretty much the same. I have had a few "green" moments, but only in the morning and only if I don't eat something within an hour of waking up. It could just be bloat or it could be my imagination, but I swear I have a little bump forming. My normally flat and hard tummy is pooching out just underneath my belly button! My clothes all still fit fine (thank God!) but I am getting self conscious of my stomach. These next 6-7 weeks will be tough for me, because I know it will look like i'm just getting pudgy rather than pregnant, lol. Oh well...it's for a good cause. ;)
Less than 10 days until my first appointment. Yes, I am totally counting down! I've really mellowed out a lot the last two weeks. Worrying is like a rocking chair...it gives you something to do, but doesn't get you anywhere. Although, my constant worry has turned into downright impatience! I've had to stop myself several times from calling the doctors office to see if they can possibly get me in any sooner. Right now i am just keeping myself busy with work and reading pregnancy books. My favorite so far is 'The Girlfriends Guide to Pregnancy'. I highly recommend it! It's basically all the things the "other" books don't tell you and all the things your doctor probably won't cover. It's laugh out loud funny and a very entertaining read. Check it out!
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