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HzlGreenEyes's Pregnancy
My Due Date: February 5, 2016I have given birth!
Age: 41 years old
Location: New Jersey, United States
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By HzlGreenEyes » Posted Jun. 8, 2015 11:04am - 326 views - 9 comments
I am waiting to hear the results from Friday's HCG and Thyroid levels and Sunday's HCG levels. I did another FRER this morning and it is darker than Friday and Saturday's HPT. I prayed this morning asking GOD to hear my prayers for this Baby. I pray that this is my Rainbow and my Blessing... I hope this is what I have prayed for.
I started picking out baby names having the meaning of God's Blessing and similar. For Girls, I like Eliana, Liliana and Clara. For Boys I like Asher, Barke and Ryder. I know it's early and anything can happen but it is just one thing I can do during these beginning stages.
I still have Connor's clothes in drawers that I left alone but I am starting to get the temptation to go through the drawers again. I also haven't looked at the pictures the photographer at the hospital took of Connor in his Baptism outfit... still hurts. I want to look at them but I can't bring myself to look at them yet. I feel as his birthday comes, I will have enough strength to look through the box the hospital gave me with his things and to see his angelic face again. For now I have the images in my head that cause me to choke up... even now as I type this.
I forgot how the time in the beginning of a pregnancy drags on...
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Monday Monday...
By HzlGreenEyes » Posted Jun. 8, 2015 11:04am - 326 views - 9 comments
I am waiting to hear the results from Friday's HCG and Thyroid levels and Sunday's HCG levels. I did another FRER this morning and it is darker than Friday and Saturday's HPT. I prayed this morning asking GOD to hear my prayers for this Baby. I pray that this is my Rainbow and my Blessing... I hope this is what I have prayed for.
I started picking out baby names having the meaning of God's Blessing and similar. For Girls, I like Eliana, Liliana and Clara. For Boys I like Asher, Barke and Ryder. I know it's early and anything can happen but it is just one thing I can do during these beginning stages.
I still have Connor's clothes in drawers that I left alone but I am starting to get the temptation to go through the drawers again. I also haven't looked at the pictures the photographer at the hospital took of Connor in his Baptism outfit... still hurts. I want to look at them but I can't bring myself to look at them yet. I feel as his birthday comes, I will have enough strength to look through the box the hospital gave me with his things and to see his angelic face again. For now I have the images in my head that cause me to choke up... even now as I type this.
I forgot how the time in the beginning of a pregnancy drags on...
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 | Comment from Cattsmeow » Posted Jun. 8, 2015 11:27am I hope this is your rainbow amidst the storm. I lost my first born daughter almost 9 years ago now. Not a day goes by that I don't think of her or see her face. I wish I could tell you that it gets better with time. I can tell you that in time, you will see something that will make you think of your angel and you will smile, however briefly, knowing that he is looking down on you and shining. I wish you all of the best during your pregnancy, and a lot of love and light. |
