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Having an "off" day... :(
By stephc2010 » Posted Feb. 28, 2016 9:40am - 347 views - 3 comments

It seems like lately I am having more "off" days than good days, and it's starting to worry me. I'm not sure if I'm just in a funk right now, or if it's something more serious...

All I want to do is sit on the couch all day, I don't want to go out anywhere, I put off grocery shopping, etc. I'm not sure if I'm just at the point in pregnancy where I am just uncomfortable, or if taking a toddler with me is exhausting enough as it is, or if it's a combination of both... Most days I wake up fine and as the day goes on, I lose all motivation to do anything. I have trouble sleeping and wake up often, but I could lay in bed in and out of sleep for nearly 11 hours and only force myself to get up when my daughter wakes up. I feel guilty for not taking her out anywhere, because I know she gets bored at home all day, but I just don't want to go anywhere. That requires getting myself ready, getting her ready, packing a diaper bag, loading the stroller in the car, making sure I have snacks for her, etc. and at that point, I can't even enjoy being away from home because I'm so exhausted. I have plans for everything I need to get done before this baby gets here, but no motivation to do anything. And lately, my anxiety has been pretty bad. I dread driving to my appointments because I have to drive an hour away and just being in a car and dealing with other drivers makes me nervous, mainly because I'm afraid of an accident or something happening to me or my daughter. Just typing that out made me feel really anxious again... And then I'm dealing with thoughts of Allison not being my only child after May and it makes me so sad, like I didn't spend enough time with just her. I love this baby so much, but I'm just nervous about how different everything will be. I think all of this combined with issues in my marriage is making everything feel so much worse than it actually is. I just want to feel "normal" again. I enjoyed being pregnant the first time around, but this time, I can't wait for it to be over. :(

My sleep schedule is completely flipped again (waking up around 8pm and going to sleep sometime late morning), maybe that's what's making me feel worse... I'm planning on mentioning all of this at my appointment on Wednesday, but I just needed to get it off my chest now, hoping it'd help...

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	Comment from stephc2010 » Posted Mar. 1, 2016 12:25am Thanks ladies. I'm feeling a bit better now. Those "off" days are rough! :(
	Comment from Mrsfingerscrossd » Posted Feb. 28, 2016 4:01pm It's probably just the hormones raging but for peace of mind perhaps you could talk to your GP about how you are feeling and if they suggest, see someone about it? They might just like to keep an eye on you and make sure you don't risk going into full post natal depression once bub is born. I'd say it's probably nothing to be too worried about at this stage but it sounds like more than just a bit of pregnancy discomfort. Best wishes xx
	Comment from WaitingwithHope » Posted Feb. 28, 2016 10:50am I know how you feel in some ways.. This is my first pregnancy so of course I don't have the impending anxiety of my first born not being an only child or the anxiety of how to deal with 2 instead of one but I do have the same mood issues and other anxieties! This past week I almost thought I was on the brink of real depression because my panic attacks about being a mom and committing to this journey were becoming an every day thing and not just a once every couple of week thing. I did talk to my OB and she said with the amount of hormones in my body and already being predisposed to depression and anxiety pregnancy just heightens all of this to an almost unmanageable state but that as long as I remember that it's only worse because I'm pregnant and this is not who I am now permanently that the anxiety should calm itself soon after birth. Hoping yours gets better on its own as well