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My Due Date: March 1, 2016I have given birth!
Age: 37 years old
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Moments of Terror
By Amanda_McDaniel » Posted Jul. 15, 2015 6:29pm - 308 views - 7 comments
Growing up, we naturally become fearful creatures. It starts with fears like making friends and public speaking and, as we get older, we add to the pile with genuine fears for life and limb that then expand to those we love. And, for those lucky enough, we get to know the abject terror of preparing to become parents. Yesterday while in Target, DS asked to go down the baby aisle and I agreed. Moments later I stood mouth agape, overwhelmed that quickly, and wondering if I had been crazed for signing up to do all of this again. Ignorance and the excitement of others had carried me in my first pregnancy but now I know what is waiting just around the riverbend and know it isn't all candy canes and rainbows. That's when I asked myself if it means more going in with eyes wide open, knowing how special the relationship with a child is and wanting it despite the inevitable challenges. That helped me to calm down and be able to go to my aging ultrasound this morning calm as a cucumber. I took both of my boys since this baby is as much theirs as mine and I was fortunate enough to not have to endure the transvaginal doodad... Little Sprout is measuring 6 weeks and 6 days so I was two days off but I was close. The sweetest heart rate was 125bmp and hopefully will continue to get stronger. It's funny, I never once feared miscarriage with my son and, even though I have no history of trouble, I'm still constantly symptom checking, underwear checking (sorry for the TMI), and praying. Welcome to my newly pregnant buddies and still praying for those who are getting closer to D-Day! Thanks for reading.
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Moments of Terror
By Amanda_McDaniel » Posted Jul. 15, 2015 6:29pm - 308 views - 7 comments
Growing up, we naturally become fearful creatures. It starts with fears like making friends and public speaking and, as we get older, we add to the pile with genuine fears for life and limb that then expand to those we love. And, for those lucky enough, we get to know the abject terror of preparing to become parents. Yesterday while in Target, DS asked to go down the baby aisle and I agreed. Moments later I stood mouth agape, overwhelmed that quickly, and wondering if I had been crazed for signing up to do all of this again. Ignorance and the excitement of others had carried me in my first pregnancy but now I know what is waiting just around the riverbend and know it isn't all candy canes and rainbows. That's when I asked myself if it means more going in with eyes wide open, knowing how special the relationship with a child is and wanting it despite the inevitable challenges. That helped me to calm down and be able to go to my aging ultrasound this morning calm as a cucumber. I took both of my boys since this baby is as much theirs as mine and I was fortunate enough to not have to endure the transvaginal doodad... Little Sprout is measuring 6 weeks and 6 days so I was two days off but I was close. The sweetest heart rate was 125bmp and hopefully will continue to get stronger. It's funny, I never once feared miscarriage with my son and, even though I have no history of trouble, I'm still constantly symptom checking, underwear checking (sorry for the TMI), and praying. Welcome to my newly pregnant buddies and still praying for those who are getting closer to D-Day! Thanks for reading.
Comments for this Journal Entry
 | Comment from MalPal85 » Posted Jul. 16, 2015 2:23pm I check TP all the time and will continue to do so. Glad that your appointment went well! |
 | Comment from Kate0406 » Posted Jul. 16, 2015 12:46pm i too underwear check... i think we all do it! |
 | Comment from pbc910 » Posted Jul. 16, 2015 10:23am I still check the tp each time I go to the bathroom and probably will until the day these babies arrive! Glad to see your appt went well! |
 | Comment from Summer0120 » Posted Jul. 16, 2015 8:24am Congrats on a growing baby and an appointment with only good news! |
 | Comment from rcorinne » Posted Jul. 16, 2015 1:46am Glad your appointment went so well. |
| Comment from lilbitsmom16 » Posted Jul. 15, 2015 10:24pm I'll be praying for you! I'm also symptom checking and underwear checking and praying constantly. I'm a FTM so all the stories of what can go wrong have me freaking out! |
 | Comment from adiggs » Posted Jul. 15, 2015 10:18pm Love this journal |
